Today is a ‘I had cancer, cancer didn’t have me’ kinda day, baby..!

What a day..!

Today is the gateway to the fulfilment of my inner peace. I’m slightly mental, but I’m well happy to be driving into the sunset once more, albeit on the M4 somewhere near Newbury rather than through an opening in the mountain and over the ocean.

Today’s sunset chasing is more warming, more emotional, just more. Clean PET/CT scans and a date for my next operation achieved, this is a BIG day in this guys Universe.

I’ve been readying myself for any eventuality this past couple of weeks, because I’ve had some form and some doctor enforced toxin embargoes in the mix. Clarity of mind has been a winner though, so despite the pressure cooker bubbling and squealing away in my head, I’ve had a reasonable control over it. Suddenly it feels like this past few months of self-absorbed prickly intensity is being replaced with a big dollop of life loving groove.

I guess we need to beat ourselves up, consider the lows an all-consuming eternity at times, in order to have the ability to dig deeper and grow stronger once more. In the hole, it’s a bastard of a battle at times. The sense of glorious high fives feels so far from reach, but cold rainy days just feel longer than sunny days in the park. The sunny days rock so much more than the rainy days suck though, so enjoy the rainy journey to your next sunshine moment because the journey is often so much more critical to the shaping of your being than the destination.

I’ve got some tough months ahead, but if the plan shapes up, I’ll have my showbiz smile back before 2014 waves me off with a cheeky smile.

Be happy people, if you can’t be happy, enjoy the rainy journey to your next happy sunny life loving day of groove…

Today is a ‘I had cancer, cancer didn’t have me’ kinda day, baby..!

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