"Goodbye Rooney and Phoenix. Hello Rudy and Felix... x"

So, it's the eve of my newest and hopefully last mouth tearing, jaw wrenching operation.

I'm in London readying myself for a 7:30am check in pre-med complete, last 2 client meetings locked down before 10 days of complete silence from this, the most talkative of mouths.

We go again I guess. Over 22 months since they carved me up, we go again in less than 12 hours time.

I’ve been looking at this photo all day today. I got it earlier and this trio is why I’m going to get me fit and well quick smart. I want to say my sons’ names so that people understand me. I don’t want to call Rudy and Felix “Rooney and Phoenix” any more. I just wanna say their names like their dad meant them to sound.

Today I’ve spent a lot of time on my own. I don’t often spend long in my own company and I’ve found it pretty calming. I’ve been processing thoughts, putting concerns to bed, gathering myself and generally concentrating on my inner peace. I’m feeling ready to do battle with the scalpel one more time. They say the first cut is the deepest, so this one should be a mere flesh wound by comparison.

I’ll be seeing you all on the other side. I’ll probably be more actively on here than recently. Let’s see how this one pans out, I for one, can’t wait to wave Rooney and Phoenix a fond farewell and finally say hello to Rudy and Felix.

One love

Jez

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